Micro Environment: People in your surroundings (your direct influences/ your city) Realistically, it is your environment that makes you feel all these ways. The global normalization of vices (drugs, alcohol, food or whatever) causes this. When you first start sobriety, you realize life is pretty dismal. Let's call them good and bad, although it isn't that cut and dry. I think one of the biggest things you or anyone will find out through sustained sobriety is this. I see a lot of young people in here testing the waters of sobriety. I just wanted to come and share my story to people who might be able to relate to at least some of what I’ve been going through. This week I’ll also start an outpatient substance abuse program. Now I’m continuing to see my therapist and psychiatrist that I’ve had since the incident in 2021 and I’ve also started seeing a substance abuse counselor and attending a recovery group. I never admitted to being an alcoholic before but now I know I was, big time. After he broke up with me and started hooking up with someone I thought was my friend I went on a hardcore month long bender before turning myself in. I was with someone (32m) most of 2022 that helped enable my drinking quite a bit and he broke my heart in November. I hadn’t touched heroin since that day in 2021 but I was drowning the trauma of waking up next to a dead body by drinking until I couldnt remember anything every week. Spending 15 days in jail scared me straight. I had a warrant out for my arrest regarding possession and maintaining a common nuisance charges stemming from an incident where a friend overdosed on heroin after we’d been using in September 2021. The morning of January 6th after a night of drinking at a favorite local bar with a couple of good friends, I turned myself in at my local county courthouse. Hitting rock bottom in January helped me get sober. Back in 2021 I was even doing heroin for a few months. Today marks 100 days completely sober for me! Last year I was going out every single weekend getting blackout drunk Friday and Saturday then drinking all Sunday evening and sometimes closing down the bars again.
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